well.. I don't know where is this going. Lucas is not the Lucas I knew, or should I say the one I thought I knew. He's not like last time, always chatting, always funny, he's like, in a silent mode. To me, only me. Maybe he's giving me the silent treatment or something cause in the conversations [only 2], he spoke only less than 8 sentences.
Him coming back is an unexpected surprise. Maybe it has something to do with the way I felt 'him'[the other one] growing up and leaving me that I think him[Lucas] coming back is going to have me re-live that. Maybe there's something I did wrong the last time that something made Lucas come back to make me make it right. I have a feeling, a gut feeling. They say always trust your gut, but hey, this is a different situation, maybe it could be wrong.
Don't know about anything now but I'm still okay though, no tears, no sadness, just anticipation. To what will happen next.
I guess I'm just living life as it goes, to let it take me to wherever it wants me to be going. My life is in God's hands right? I'll just go with the flow.
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