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I wanna talk to you so bad and yet I wouldn't want you to feel I'm like annoying. I try to talk but I think I'm trying too hard. You're being so cold.. like he did.. I knew it, I'm going through this all over again.. I asked you how long have we been apart, you said 6 months. 6 months, is it really? Did I forget or did I just didn't want to remember ? I just realized I'm a horrible person.

I wanna talk to you but I don't want you to be annoyed. You started the conversation and yet you have me bursting my mind to think of things to talk to you. Everytime I stopped for you to have a reply, on average counts, its one minute. I remembered last time your replies were like lightning fast, and I was like, you're crazy. But now? your replies are like, slow, really slow..Sigh.

Can't blame anyone can I? I really don't understand guys, not at all. Guess that when they get different, they change totally. Like seriously. Like both of them, just seeing them going up and out, it's really hard. To know that the memories will not be memories anymore, that they'll be lost in sea, sailing into someone else's heart.

Now its like i wrote a thousand love songs from my heart, and when i sing it to you, you just laughed and laughed and laughed. I'm not that person anymore. Not the one you care for anymore. And definitely not the one you love anymore. It's like deja vu. I'm reliving everything.

The cold first, then the lack of interest, then the avoidance, then the parting, then the part when I watch you live your life and the tears all in between. The coldness has started. Wonder how long will it take for me to get over this one.. It took me 3 months to forget the previous one, how long will it take this time? =\
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Well I know Im a sucker for shoving all these nonesense to you , so i'll PROMISE i'll write a happy post next time =)          

-EMILY OUT-